Day 208
After reading Erica's blog, Overland Park has a tough drumming up any kind of excitement. It is so fun to live life through her experiences and travels when it gets a little boring around here.
The highlight of the month, and it was my best Xmas present, has been a significant change in a certain someones attitude towards life. It seems too coincidental not to be related to a recent medication change. . . . the miracle of modern medicine. The ol' person that we love and adore has come back and done away with the sullen, surly, self-centered jerk. I just hope it lasts. Right now I am in the stage of being amazed at each civil, meaningful interchange that we have. I almost prepare for myself for getting angry and am amazed that it is unnecessary. So in other words, this change in behavior in another person has changed my own behavior dramatically. I like me a lot better too! I am not really sure what to make of it. The fact that I am not identifying this person shows I am still paranoid about the Internet. There is a lot I haven't written in the past few months about the stress of dealing with this person and thinking that I didn't know if I could take anymore. I don't know if it is an answer to my many prayers or not. Was this all about brain chemistry and not the many other things I attributed it to? Life is weird.
We were pretty lazy over the holiday break and didn't do much to get out. We had a couple of nice meals out and I went to a couple of movies, one with Rick and one with friends. The weather has been unseasonably warm so we were able to get out a lot. We did good in that we weren't depressed or sad without Erica- but like a quote I heard in a TV drama- "Life is so much less with you". It describes how I feel so I now use that as my sign off when writing her. That doesn't mean that I am depressed- I just feel incomplete without her nearby. I now know how Edna and LaVerne felt at times. I feel I will feel better once she is even on a closer time zone and on the same continent.
I went with my new co-worker to see "We Are Marshall". It was based on true story about a Texas football team that was killed in an airplane crash in 1970. Matt McG. was beautiful in it and it was a sad, but poignant story. In a way it reminded me of my work environment. So much has changed where I work- everyone is gone and has been replaced by others. People are welcoming and going on and on about the new people, but few are being sensitive to the feelings of those of us who have been left behind. It is hard to see the changes and see that many go on and do not miss the old environment because they weren't there. At one point in the movie Matt M. (the head coach) realizes how much the community is struggling and takes the whole team (most that did not know the previous players) to the graveyard and has a somewhat of a moment to honor the previous players memory. The community was better able to support the team after that and the players seem to be more sensitive in their role as players.
As soon as Kevin got back to school he was feeling bad. First he was dizzy and couldn't stay at school. Then he had trouble waking up. Finally he firmly said "I need to go to the doctor today". The last thing I thought he would have was mono. I was shocked. So he has already missed 6 of 8 days back and may miss more. He feels better now so he will hopefully be able to attend his modified schedule of 6 hours per day.
I am taking a class on Asperger's that I attend every Tuesday evening. It is really interesting. I think some of my cousin's may have this. I also have signed up to be the school nurse at the HS this summer. That will be interesting and give me a tastes of HS. I will only be working 20 mornings because I am splitting it with another school nurse. So I am staying busy.
I will say that there is a lot of good new TV shows. I have gotten into The Office, Ugly Betty, and Brothers and Sisters. I still like Cold Case, Grey's Anatomy, Top Chef, Project Runway, and Without a Trace. I am also getting into The Medium about the psychic lady.
Not much more going on- I will try to make my next post more exciting!
After reading Erica's blog, Overland Park has a tough drumming up any kind of excitement. It is so fun to live life through her experiences and travels when it gets a little boring around here.
The highlight of the month, and it was my best Xmas present, has been a significant change in a certain someones attitude towards life. It seems too coincidental not to be related to a recent medication change. . . . the miracle of modern medicine. The ol' person that we love and adore has come back and done away with the sullen, surly, self-centered jerk. I just hope it lasts. Right now I am in the stage of being amazed at each civil, meaningful interchange that we have. I almost prepare for myself for getting angry and am amazed that it is unnecessary. So in other words, this change in behavior in another person has changed my own behavior dramatically. I like me a lot better too! I am not really sure what to make of it. The fact that I am not identifying this person shows I am still paranoid about the Internet. There is a lot I haven't written in the past few months about the stress of dealing with this person and thinking that I didn't know if I could take anymore. I don't know if it is an answer to my many prayers or not. Was this all about brain chemistry and not the many other things I attributed it to? Life is weird.
We were pretty lazy over the holiday break and didn't do much to get out. We had a couple of nice meals out and I went to a couple of movies, one with Rick and one with friends. The weather has been unseasonably warm so we were able to get out a lot. We did good in that we weren't depressed or sad without Erica- but like a quote I heard in a TV drama- "Life is so much less with you". It describes how I feel so I now use that as my sign off when writing her. That doesn't mean that I am depressed- I just feel incomplete without her nearby. I now know how Edna and LaVerne felt at times. I feel I will feel better once she is even on a closer time zone and on the same continent.
I went with my new co-worker to see "We Are Marshall". It was based on true story about a Texas football team that was killed in an airplane crash in 1970. Matt McG. was beautiful in it and it was a sad, but poignant story. In a way it reminded me of my work environment. So much has changed where I work- everyone is gone and has been replaced by others. People are welcoming and going on and on about the new people, but few are being sensitive to the feelings of those of us who have been left behind. It is hard to see the changes and see that many go on and do not miss the old environment because they weren't there. At one point in the movie Matt M. (the head coach) realizes how much the community is struggling and takes the whole team (most that did not know the previous players) to the graveyard and has a somewhat of a moment to honor the previous players memory. The community was better able to support the team after that and the players seem to be more sensitive in their role as players.
As soon as Kevin got back to school he was feeling bad. First he was dizzy and couldn't stay at school. Then he had trouble waking up. Finally he firmly said "I need to go to the doctor today". The last thing I thought he would have was mono. I was shocked. So he has already missed 6 of 8 days back and may miss more. He feels better now so he will hopefully be able to attend his modified schedule of 6 hours per day.
I am taking a class on Asperger's that I attend every Tuesday evening. It is really interesting. I think some of my cousin's may have this. I also have signed up to be the school nurse at the HS this summer. That will be interesting and give me a tastes of HS. I will only be working 20 mornings because I am splitting it with another school nurse. So I am staying busy.
I will say that there is a lot of good new TV shows. I have gotten into The Office, Ugly Betty, and Brothers and Sisters. I still like Cold Case, Grey's Anatomy, Top Chef, Project Runway, and Without a Trace. I am also getting into The Medium about the psychic lady.
Not much more going on- I will try to make my next post more exciting!
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